I'm having the very strange experience of having no pressing deadlines.
It feels like that for weeks now, every single night has been fraught with the "you didn't get everything done you need to" panic followed by completely crashing out....then waking up in the morning with a groan because your need to sleep cuts deeply into your time to get all the silly things you committed yourself to done.
Frankly, it has been exhausting.
This last Friday I did a 2-hour workshop on the stories behind the yoga poses. I've been researching all the stories within the Hindu tradition that correspond to various yoga poses for several months now. It's fun research....the stories are oddly crazy but their application and meaning are incredibly profound. I procrastinated way too much in getting ready for this....but I pulled it off. And not just in the way of barely skirting my way through it....I nailed it. It was the first time, in a very long time, that I truly felt like "I've got this, this is going to be ok."
I'm still sitting within that feeling....that I've truly got this.
Which is good, because it feels like the new ventures I've been trying to undertake have been failing. I really needed to not feel defeated/hopeless about something for once.
I hope that this lasts. In the immediate future, I get to have an evening where I can do whatever I want....there is no rush, only the feeling of possibility.
And so now, I am sharing a video of Tarkan for no other reason that I can, and I realized how much I missed watching this beautiful man dance..... these are the things that you get to do when you don't have a pressing deadline....pretty nice....