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I know that it is a common dream interpretation that when someone is driving in a car that the individual driving represents who is in control of your life. I'm going to assume that a plane is not going to symbolize my life, but it could very likely represent a relationship. I recently told the Gent that we were done. It was in a chat message (so make any assumptions you want to able how horrible a person I am with that) and we were having a text fight. For months it seems like the text chat is the only way to get him to pay attention to what I am trying to tell him. When I speak to him he's looking at his phone or focused on something or someone else. If I am going to feel alone, I would rather that be when I am physically alone, not lying in a bed with someone or sitting next to them. He has been the absent pilot in my dream. I'm waiting for him to be there like he is supposed to be. I'm where I am supposed to be, next to him to support him. But instead I'm alone feeling all of the impacts of the crazy circumstances of him not being there. People and objects are being hurt because he isn't where he should be....and all I can do is brace for impact.
It perfectly sums up how I feel. I don't love him any less....but I can't be left alone in the plane spinning out of control anymore. I'm sure that there could be many different interpretations of the dream. Such as examining why I as co-pilot had no access to controls and not knowing how to fly the plane.... it could mean that I am shit at relationships (but I honestly think everyone needs to work on that as relationships are not static but dynamic and always changing) and it could also mean that I have given up too much control to someone else. Or it could just mean that I needed my partner pilot to be there and they weren't.
I don't know where anything else goes from this point. I'm in new territory here. In the past my relationships have ended either by a mutual discussion where we are still friends, or in being left by the other person with no closure whatsoever. I've never had the opportunity to reconcile with someone or even have the satisfaction of a knock-down drag out fight that we make up from. The only thing that I do know is that I can't get into that plane cockpit by myself again. I can't be sitting there waiting for the other person to show up so that we can go through our pre-flight checks and properly take off... I need to walk down that gangway and enter that plane with that person right by my side.