even more house shots!

Yes, just when you thought that I wouldn't put anymore shaky photos of my house up on the web...ha ha...I did. Here is where the computer desk used to be in the dining room.



Erin came with me to the import store today to buy some things for the walls. I am so glad that she was willing to come and to help me hang these things up. Below is one of the scrolls that we got for the living room.

This is the wall by Mr.3's side of the bed....and it also is a self-portrait of my laptop.

And here is the prettiest part of all....I now have something for the massive wall in the bedroom. The fabric is a blue and gold phoenix motif and the scrolls say "patience" and "happiness"...I thought that those were the most appropiate for the difficult times we have been having lately.

The nice thing about all of this is now the bedroom feels done. We have lived here for over a year and I just now get to the point of having the bedroom finished. The guest bedroom was decorated before this one. How messed up is that?

More house shots

Here is a series of dark and low quality shots of the living room. Note the new addition of the hat rack to display Mr. 3's collection. The pictures don't do it justice for how large the room feels now or how pretty the floors are.

House Pictures

Here is the first set in a series of pictures on my re-doing of the house.



This is the new corner that I created so that we could use both sides of the bookcase.



A shot of the new greenery above the closet in the master bedroom.

Holy Crap!!!

So much news today that I am going to have to post more later to cover everything....but here is the coolest part that has me most excited.... I found out this morning that....

I'M GOING TO INDIA!!!!!!

Global Voices is having their annual conference in New Delhi this coming December and I asked for funding from them....and I got it!!!!! I'm crazy excited! AHHHHHH!!!!

Trying to Find a Routine

I started work this week, 2 weeks earlier than planned. Partly it helps me calm my mind and then on the other hand it reminds me of why I miss Mr.3 more and more. His job didn't work as planned and he is currently in the hospital getting lots of tests done for a problem with his leg. With luck the VA will be able to transport him back to Salt Lake, but that could be a couple of weeks down the line.

Everyone has been very kind to me, and only a very few actually know everything that is going on. I would definitely like to thank everyone who has sent me words of encouragement...I may never act on your offers of kindness, but knowing that they are there has made my load a little lighter. I am afraid that all I have said so far is all that can be said about what is going on...I personally dislike evasiveness and yet I am forced to be so in this situation.

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Tell them I said something."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

Still here...languishing...

I have been waiting and waiting and waiting for word from Mr.3 for me to come and see him. The car has been packed for 2 days and I have been packed for 3, ready to spring to my love at a moment's notice. In the loneliness I have gone a little crazy, resulting in me leaving pleading, hysterical messages on Mr.3's phone.

I am not sure if he will ever speak to me again, although I hold out hope that he will.

So I continue to wait for him....and I've been inging this song to myself through my tears and my screams:

"It's not the pale moon that excites me, that thrills and delights me,
oh no, it's the nearness of you.
It isn't your sweet conversation, that brings this sensation,
oh no, it's the nearness of you.

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me,
all my wildest dreams come true.
I need no soft light to enchant me if you'll only grant me
the right to hold you ever so tight, and to feel in the night
the nearness of you."

my languishing activities....

I have managed to work on a couple loads of laundry.

Just finished watching House of Flying Daggers....dang that was sad, but pretty. Now Buckaroo Banzai is on....this is one of those crazy movies (much like catwoman) that you wonder how exactly they made this trash with a straight face.

And oddly enough, I have seen two movies today where Kate Winslet's character drowns: Hamlet and Quills.

Just let me stay depressed all right?

I like the word languish, and that is what I wish to do.

Yes, I know that I haven't left the house in two days and have barely left the bedroom. I am ok with this and I ask everyone to be as well.

I'll come out in my own time.

blahady blahady blah

So my fervor to expose the current situation has died down, partly because I have had more than one person ask me to stop....not that I was going to say something that I shouldn't. Anyway I feel mostly like the life has just been sucked out of me.

Mr.3 accepted a new job and started this week, so I didn't even get to spend my birthday with my husband, which made me sad. And I returned to Salt Lake by myself, last night was my first ever night alone here. It wasn't too bad but I won't proclaim to like it. Today I finally cleaned the floors in the house...well at least in the bedroom. Damn this house gets dirty over the course of a year, even with cleaning. And I took the opportunity to move the furniture in the bedroom....I really like it. We have now managed to get all of the furniture that we keep clothes in the main bedroom...although my hanging stuff is still in a closet in the guest room...that space issue will never be fixed while we are here. It's great now I can watch TV lying down on the bed without my boobs blocking the view and I can lay in the bed and look out the window. I hope that Mr.3 will like it the next time he is here.

So yeah, that is pretty much all....just a big super blah....I'm gonna go back and watch more TV, I am afraid that I might be using it as self-medicating tool...but what the hell...I pay for cable don't I? Besides...it's time for RockStar: Supernova...my latest guilty pleasure.